myworld

2007-07-11T12:27:00.000+08:00

come back to blog again...haha~ -_-'' not enough sleep la..3 plus then sleep...left my journal at kenneth house...-_-'' yesterdae after toking to jeremy lao gong...went to kenneth house...discuss abt a problem..haiz~ must i realli do tt?it is hurtful...if i sae no?wat would happen?if i sae yes..?wat would happen?no matter which choice i make...i m sure to hurt some1...the onli problem is hu..n how many nia...haiz~ kenneth has to make a decision too!does it realli fair for us?i not sure...

yeah~human r selfish!it is so damn true~ y?i saw it myself todae...human r juz a living being tt like to used other ppl to get wat they wan!or,should i sae...in order to save themselves....they push others to face it?those ppl hu sae tt i will wait for u forever...is all fake too!y?i m 1 of them....i hav been forgetting things more n more...how long can i hang on?i dun noe...robots r juz a toy for ppl to play with...wat if robots turn out to hurt them?is it the onli solution?i m damn tired...which side should i side?my orginal side..or the side which i realli wanted to b?

back in sch todae...still not get used to it...haiz~ time is needed for me...but,how much time do i hav?

2007-07-10T18:02:00.000+08:00

wa....so long never come blog le...todae no need go to sch!haha...during the 3 weeks of holdiae...i go to vietnam n malaysia...wa...no break sia...so tired...but after tt...sch reopen le...haiz~ however,still must wish da long happy 31st birthdae!haha...yesterdae we spend the 12am with him...haha~ but,can sense tt he not happy lor...herm...got lots of stuff...wont type out...cox,i forget le..but,i got tell those hu contact me de la..=X but here...must special thanz mummy...hehe....

All update?

2007-05-30T11:57:00.000+08:00

wow..long time no update le...from the veri beginning..i must wish hui qian happy birthdae!(although wish her le la...but,still must write here de lor..=x )a lot of thing happen la...so,write summary nia...cox,finally update for 1 month de stuff?is impossible de lor...with my brain cells?think too much...=x the thing i onli remember is tt,i m a screwdriver...y?cox,i screw up my accounting n costing test!sianz~ n hor,within this month,my sis got married...so,i now got jie fu le..-_-'' wish them happily ever after?hahaha...=x (dun care me...i m siaoz liaoz...) 1 veri funny thing de...got some ppl got stead ar...but,the stead ma ciam guy..haha!but,i lost the bet to jeremy lor...tao yan...they onli stead 1 month nia..i started to wondering..y can i go with him so long lei?i dun noe...=x n hor...the most sianz part is tt,my dong mian come earli!argh~ make me sleep so earli...my character is stuck!cox of my dong mian...haiz~~~~now doing rotting at student hub...cox,i got 2 hrs break...so,rot until come here blog lor...hahaha....

2007-04-16T17:04:00.000+08:00

fucked up!todae sleep at 5plus...wake up at 7....sianZ~sch reopen le...went to sch with amutha,geralynn,adeline,qian ping n liyana...haiz~this time got 2 fucking teacher teach me..wtf~

y?y this thing has to happen?i hav to go through it once again...i hav to c u another person end his journey...i wanna end mine soon...

2007-04-04T22:42:00.000+08:00

yoz!i m back!haha,adui...forget to update...firstly,confirm must wish TOMES DEAR HAPPY 21TH BELATED BIRTHDAE!!!actually already wish him at 12am using hp le...but,now must put here to sincere...or else,later he kill me how?=x no la,joking nia...but,now he is uncle le lor...hahahaha,me still young..=x cox,haven get "jin suo shi"=x hav fun with him n da long...haiz,hope da long wont b sad lor...cox,nowadays,da long is sad de...:( make me also sad...cox,i m siao long...=x

i m happy as my results turn out to b better than i expected! haha,mummy..where r u?i wan to go out n hav fun!n...ur birthdae present...realli sorri..raising money to return hp bill..cox,recently bomb!haha..-_-'' n hor,congrats amutha get gpa 4 again!kavitha did well too~ although not up to her standard..but,wish u good luck 4 ur appealing!

lastly,yeah~ he is coming back again..so happy to c him b4 sch reopen...but,tt also mean tt 10 princess hav to seperate le..sob sob...

2007-03-31T19:48:00.000+08:00

now then i get to noe abt QQ...it is chinese version of MSN..i get to noe xin li..haha,i m happy~ cox,she is fun to get along..she teaches me a lot...n,she is my lao po...haha....todae chat with tomes dear...quite fun...but then..i hav been waiting for his msg...he juz dun msg me...y?i started to worried le...todae,he is supposed to come back from japan..but,i sense something..weird...haiz~

2007-03-28T18:58:00.000+08:00

yeah~ todae is the 200th post...so surprise ar?my blog can survive so long...sianz~ my blog around 3 month never change blogskin le..nowadays..realli no mood la...cox,lao gong at japan...he will b back on sundae...realli miss him...this few daes...realli make my life upside down...at nite,is awake de...at morning n afternoon...is sleeping time...like todae...sleep until 4.36pm...-_-'' will try to change back my own de...btw,i juz wish to play with da long! da long is funny...luv to b with him...=D

2007-03-12T15:34:00.000+08:00

sianz la~ i screw up my Business Communication de paper....arghz~ tml is Business Statistics...sianz~ juz for the sake of KFC...i go around digging 2 hrs with adeline lei...-_-''

lastly,wish amutha happy 18th birthdae!

2007-03-10T14:05:00.000+08:00

sorri wor...so long never update le...exams start next week...jeremy lao gong will b coming at the end of my accounting paper tt dae..haha,wish him come sooner..now both of us keep counting down the daes...haiz~ i m still so slack...but hor,now i wanna curse her la...GO N DIE OR HAV DIVORCE SOON!IDIOT,WORKING LE...STILL TAKE MY MONEY FOR WAt?

n hor,quite disappointed with some1 de lor....always sae sick..at the end?appear at some1 house...pissed off la!

2007-03-06T01:03:00.000+08:00

wa..so long no update le...so surprise lei...-_-'' crap wat i remember de la...cox,got something wanna updated...then,i forget to updated le...-_-''

firstly,must thanz ganga for helping me wash my zhu zhu...*muackz* cox,mrs yu tell me go wash b4 bringing it to sch...although feel a little bit kanna insult..but now...nvm la..now is clean...jiu can le...

secondly,last saturdae go out with hui xian,shu wen,devi n her bro...we had quite a little fun la..but,not all being gather la...so,quite ke xi de....

then,i juz hate u la...if u dun like me,juz sae la...dun always act innocent or wat la...idiot~ i hav enough of u...dun force me lor...

2007-02-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

yeah~ todae go out with bao ling mummy~ last minute de la...but,love her lots!she dote me...hehe...haiz~shopping lor...somemore,buy 1 set of clothes again...(so much money...spend on me can or not?) n hor,i spend $6 at arcade lei...heartpain...-_-'' todae...we tok a lot...hehe...she will b my mummy forever dE!=p btw,wanna tok abt something is tt,dun worri much...i will disappear soon de

2007-02-12T18:49:00.000+08:00

*edited*
sianz~ todae mr sim do spot-check..ya...fingernails has to cut..veri de bus hse de lei...my fingernails lei...left 3 more months to go lor...can dun cut?=x btw,todae i go shoot mr sim for issueing me 2nd letter for no reason as other ppl dun hav...his face blac kblack...=p

yeah~brother is coming back at 12am!yeah,some2 going to fight com with me le...hehe...then,i got quite a bad news from other ppl...all o lvl cant do it...sianz~

2007-02-09T18:47:00.000+08:00

here to sae happy belated birthdae to my mummy!sorri ar...recently busy over some stuffs...haiz~i juz hate 9th of the month...i now started to hate my birthdae le..its sux!it totally sux~haiZ~ cant do anything to change it le...dun wan to try le...tired le...

2007-02-05T17:34:00.000+08:00

yoz...back for more?haha..todae tired la...sleep at business statistics..sianz~ teacher sae my english not good..tt means,this time..i hav to chiong my accounting n business statistics to get A!or else,i will get 2B,1A!sianz~ but hor,on my way home..todae i c the sam ar..tt 1 which is good at cooking de...

2007-02-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

back le..haha...herm,found out tt,nowadays is "fen shou jie" n "single jie" lor...haiz~ valentine dae is coming...so many ppl finding gf/bf.haha...hw haven do..slacking whole dae long...later cannot sleep earli liaoz...n hor,i find tt i got IQ de!cox,i play a IQ game...i managed to pass lei...haha!-_-'' haiz~ realli hope tt tomes dear can pass the low tide...cox,suddenly he depressed..haiz~ i hope he is alrite..but,dun worri...i will b with u de!

P.S:happy 19th birthdae to hui ting!

2007-01-27T18:19:00.000+08:00

yesterdae,i heard a veri shocking news..tt is...da long n his gf break up le...7 yrs of relationship...is gone!no matter how hard da long tried..his gf decided to give him up!haha,xiao long n da long got the same fate...both juz kanna pushed away by their loved ones..i m veri worried abt him...haiz~ i thought both of them going to get married lor..at the end,haiz...it shows tt promises r all lies...

2007-01-25T21:49:00.000+08:00

this entry..is to come here n apologize lots of ppl de...but,b4 tt,me come here to write my normal entry first..hehe...todae,i m sort of back to normal?cry a few times...cox,everything come to an end...but,todae still consider normal..cox,not a lot of ppl noe i cry..haha..then,todae presentation...i m damn scared..but,i decided to give it a try tml..cox,it was where i fall down...therefore,i must stand at the same spot!todae tomes dear accompany me the whole dae...haha,c him so good..but hor,he also jio gal la...-_-''

PS:if wan to read the chinese words,pls encode to unicode(UTF-8)

to kenneth:sorri tt u hav trust the wrong person...u trust me,tt y u trust her...but,guess..it is time to end le ba...sorri~

to jasmine:i noe tt i m wrong le...u sae tt,she cant b trusted...yet i do this to hurt u all...i m sorri....i cant even help when ur baby is dead...

to gang:sorri for leaving u all...guess,this is my retribution ba...humans cant b trusted anymore....

to tomes dear:说好只哭到十二点，是不可能的啦!因为，终点到了。。。有好多东西和回忆，我很舍不得!我想，是时候我也该回到我的冰冷世界去了。。。也许，我早就该回了!你说一定有人可以解开我心中的锁。。。我跟你说，不可能。。。事实上，却被一个人开了。。。结果呢?她能轻易的把一切给忘掉。。。这次，我受伤了，死掉了。。。

to li yun:
说好不会放弃我，为什么，到头来，却轻易的把我忘记?说我进入了你的世界，却可以被人取代?承诺，在那里?忘了吗?我感到不安，像个ci wei会伤人。。。你说，没关系。。你不建议。。。不过，如今呢?轻易的把我推开!说好不伤我。。结果呢?我很痛!让你进入我的世界，是错的!为什么?我很需要你，不过呢?一句"每一个人都会交新朋友的"我就轻易被取代!我不想伤害你啊!如今，你已经决定放弃承诺。。。我无论抓多紧，已经没了。。。眼泪掉不停，是不要伤害我吗?不是吧?你伤害我到彻底，你知道吗?!彻底打碎我的人是你!是你把我推回我的世界!说到底，我还是一个大家都不要的小瓶盖!

2007-01-24T15:01:00.000+08:00

todae earli dismissal for 1 hr...-_-'' ma ciam like fridae lor..1 release..haha,then tml got CA2 test for business statistics n banking finance de..hope our class can get high marks for it!jia you IQH!haha,when did i become so good de?i also dun noe..tml is a long dae for me..n,luckily my leg is ok le...todae back to normal le!yeah~ haiz~bro now in taiwan le...sianz~ da jia remember...my emotion drop to unstable le...

PS:to some1,mayb u r rite afterall...i shouldnt hav mixed with them...y?humans juz sux...i juz dun believe nia...

2007-01-23T16:16:00.000+08:00

these 2 daes...tt fucking sim never force me go present le..whew~ but i feel bad...but,wo jiu shi zhe yang ma...i scare la..todae,i realize tt she lie to me again...ask her y didnt tag my blog?she sae,she was busy..tt y,she never tag anybodi ppl de blog...i believe...at the end,she too tag other ppl blog...so,wat is the conclusion?dun ever believe her again?or,my thinking is too beautiful le?thought of taking back my xiao huang...at the end,i dun wan..cox,i still wanna hav her...when we hav the same thinking...i was happy...thinking tt,nth has changed...we still hav the mo qi..but then,i m wrong...everything has changed...i think,i should take back le...

2007-01-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

ya..indeed...fridae...i screw up the presentation...teacher force me to present...at the end,i present onli a little bit...i break down...i squat down n cry...i juz scare of strangers...teacher sae i wasted time...so,i go out of the room n squat down...ya,wo zai fa dai...i m scare of strangers...then,after tt,the rest force me to go to class...i juz keep on crying...i noe i break down le...they thought i m pai seh to go to class..actually,i m not...they r angry with me n unhappy of me due to my fucking attitude...sorri guys...i noe tt,u all wont b able to read my blog...but,i realli wanna sae tt,i m real sorri...

then,todae 9am plus wake up le...accompany mother go shopping...wear skirt again..as usual...-_-''

2007-01-19T07:24:00.000+08:00

wed....still sick de...but,go out with li yun n lin long...haha,both ll...then,all wear black de..actually,wanna take xiao huang from her de ...at the end,i never take..haiz~

edit project until 5.30am...so,sleep at thinking skills lesson...sleep long hours is more tired than sleeping a while..-_-'' then,yesterdae thought of waking up to edit de...at the end,i sleep until 7.20am?haiz...yesterdae no need present le...cox,teacher take break...hu tell some idiot unhappy abt teacher arrangement...cox,they present first ma..now,they unhappy...then,todae,me die liaoz..room so big..can dun present or not?haiz...then,yesterdae PE..more sianz~ if dun wan me in the group..juz sae tt,u all wan change group members la...wah liaoz...sianz~

2007-01-15T18:29:00.000+08:00

todae so sway!todae tt fucking sim draw lot...i kanna...then at the end,cant present ma...then,deduct 5 marks straight away wor~ wtf!i dun like him la...he sux to the core~ bc sux! tt time bf..i thought he is a good teacher...now,i dun find it lor...sianz~ tml if dun present...5 marks gone again...where got teacher like tt de?mr tang wouldnt like tt de lor...tang tang is the best!=p haiz....now still spend time doing project...can do finish or not...i dun noe lor...mayb,todae dun sleep lor...sianz~

2007-01-14T18:37:00.000+08:00

find out something...she do wishes other ppl birthdae in website...but y wo de birthdae jiu mei you?hai shi yi kai shi,wo jiu shi ben dan?yi wei,wo zhao dao le zui hao de peng you?yesterdae go out with mummy...i sae i wanna change hp no..cox,he call me again...at 9.15am...then,my mother ask me..y keep changing phone no?wat if old friends wanna contact u?i juz reply "ma,changing of hp no..is juz a filter...those hu i normally dun cotact de..this time got...next time dun hav de...cox,friends is not forever de" after replying my mummy...my mummy juz keep quiet...i feel my heart in pain...i pretend tt,it is normal....ya,i often dun like to express my real feelings...so wat?wat if i express my real feelings...will ppl give a damn?no!the 1 i trusted most has betray me...so..wat for?i decided not to hav real friends anymore..i wanna stop it...tomes dear sae tt they will b ppl hu can open up my lock...but,i choose to throw away de key...he sae tt they will b ppl de...i sae "i once open it..but,so wat?i onli get hurt!if it is,i rather dun wanna open it!i dun wanna c blood..." he juz keep quiet...haha,everybodi keep quiet when i sae this...(magic word? =x ) then,yesterdae accompany mummy go chinatown...wah liaoz..scare to meet some1 i noe..cox,i wear until so lady-like...pai seh ma...=x then,we go chinatown de CK..at the end,meet her friends...sianz~somemore,1 is shorter n smaller in size than me.actually is same age as kor?i was like -_-'' she also surprise tt,i m younger than her lor...bo bian..i got old face lor...wat to do?actually todae wanna do project de..but,dun noe y still so slack...-_-'' die le lor..end of year lei...still so slack...go jump down building liaoz...=x n hor,todae finally chat with ah bee...been worrying for ah bee these few daes...cox,he didnt contact me...thought wat happen to him le...now,is tomes dear de problem le...hope i can do wat i can ba...n hor...nowadays...i dun noe wat happen to me lei...cox hor..in my mp3..all audition,sdo or o2jam de song...siao liaoz lor me...btw,tml jiu 5th month le...can we go as long?but..i suspect...i started to like 2 person le...omg~ die liaoz...=x

2007-01-11T18:50:00.000+08:00

haiz..todae so late then reach home..but,is normal de la...cox,todae until 4pm ma...haiz...somebodi still in holidae mood...pls la..study lei...dun always copy other ppl work...(although i m 1?=x) she also kanna pissed off by u liaoz...haha,write liaoz..she also dun noe..cox,she dun read my blog?=x todae mr sim la..wah liaoz...hai me...so many ppl in the class draw lots...so sway..me kanna lor...todae got 33 students lei!so damn sway...then still kanna film n laugh at...sianz~ then,todae c keychain...got minnie mouse de?intend to buy for some1...at the end,i never buy...=x cox,it is handmade de..sianz...article haven read...hw haven do...project also haven do...dun noe y i m so slack...haha...keep playing n toking to da long,tomes dear n jeremy dear...like this goes on..will i fail my this sem?i also dun noe lei..but hor,i keep using blue font lei..dun complain le...cox..I M A BLUE FREAK...=p

2007-01-10T15:44:00.000+08:00

yeah...reach home le...-_-'' heard tt "o" lvl result release at 5th of feb...also dun noe true or not...sianz~ todae hav lesson of business statistics n intermediate accounting...n hor,todae zhu zhu accompany me 3rd dae of schling le...hehe...me n adeline share share de zhu zhu...hehe...but then hor,the zhu zhu can hide around adeline bag de..cox,same colour you mei you?haha...todae,when walking home...i c the bus 157..which got the mickey mouse on it de...i mena,wall paper la...i suddenly recall of wat me n jason tok abt tt bus...cox,tt time around 12 plus..me n jason confirm will c tt bus de...tt time,we intend to hao lian to li yun de...cox,she like mickey mouse de ma...but the more i c tt bus..the more i wanna avoid le...it juz left pain for me..nth else la...

2007-01-09T14:03:00.000+08:00

todae earli dismissal...yeah!actually...onli earlier than 45 mins?haha,cox i sch end at 10.30am...haha...earli rite?lesson start at 8...end at 10.30am?then,go back with lina n adeline...herm,still hate sch life..y?must wake up earli...sianz~ btw,i hurt my leg...sob sob...now,walking got difficulty lor...fuck la...everytime wear shoe like tt de...yesterdae was shock lor...jason call me...then,i onli tok 2 sentence...n i hang up!=D he everytime like to call me near the 9th...sianz~ how much i wanna change my no now!herm,between me n joey...still friends la...but hor,between me n li yun...wat r we?i dun noe...to her,hu m i?to me..she ar?herm,long time never tok le?does we still consider "dear" n "darling"?the contact inside both phone is "li yun dear" n "li yun dear's hp" but hor,at blog...i onli link her as "li yun"...weird rite?i also found it weird...=x recently toking abt jeremy dear how close we r...i even go n find the entry tt saes tt i luv her n wanna stick to her 4ever!jeremy dear was like -_-'' haha...=x actually,can understand de la...tt time..jason n andy also jealous over us....haha~but,back to reality..i also found out tt,she got her new angels in her life now...wanna ask her out...but,she always hav something on...then,1 time..can meet de...at the end,haha,i last minute got something on...n,i cancel it...yesterdae my schmates ask me.."wat abt tt person u always tok at msn during OA lesson le?cox,u nowadays never mention abt her le..." i then sae...ya...i long time never mention abt her de...y?she goes on her life without me...so,wat can i sae abt heR?i treasure her...but,she doesnt treasure me...they keep quiet...i still remember tt rencently i sae tt,we hav broke up as well as joey...i ask joey...does she still wan to b friends...she sae ya...wat abt li yun?does she still treat me some1 tt she once closest?ahha,i didnt ask her...cox,i juz hate the answer if she sae...i never treat u as tt time close le...i will like...='( ? haha,actually,i can find out the answer myself...she now has the happy time with other ppl...so,wat for i wanna her to b with me when she is more happy with other ppl?but,i wanna b selfish...but,i noe tt,i hate it...y?i dun wan her to b unhappy...i think she with me..she will b unhappy ba?give her my favourite xiao huang...now,i guess,its time to take back ba?back to the world without her give me a lot of hard time...y?i got tell everybodi b4...if i can give up on li yun...to me,nobodi matters to me...haha,but everybodi noe tt,i cant give up her la..but,wat can i do?jeremy dear still hear me calling her as "dear" ma ciam we r still so close...ya,he noes tt how close we r...mayb,past time?future,i dun noe la...so,cannot sae anything...=x btw,my fingernails started to grow le...mayb,cant update blog as usual..cox veri ma fan...n now,i worri abt ah bee...cox,he 3 daes never tok to me le..scare he not normal...haiz~n hor,y todae de blog entry so long de?=x

2007-01-08T17:19:00.000+08:00

yoz...back for more?aiyo...2 daes never sleep...then,todae still got to go to sch...sianz lor...damn tired de...then,MRT flood lor...sianz~y?cox a lot of new students lor...then hor,todae as usual la...listen to mp3...at the end,i listen until audition song..then,got 1 student keep looking at me...ma ciam i cannot listen to audition song mei?then,todae 1st yr come in..i think is office skill?i also not veri sure...but,we do our own things lor...but hor,todae whole class still in holidae mood...n hor..i c my tang tang...hahahaha...haiz...project haven do...accounting haven do...then,todae mr sim tell me to tok abt book/article..then,i sae skip....mr sim tell me fridae must sae...i sianz~ then,when me n adeline take train go back...train got faulty?sianz~ then,we wait for another train..wa kaoz...7 mins...i feel like sleeping la...sianz~later still hav to discuss with tomes regarding his problem...haiz...hu can save me ar?i going to become panda le...

2007-01-06T21:16:00.000+08:00

herm,left 1 more dae...sch going to reopen le..sianz...i grow fat lei..wonder uni still can wear or not...=x todae,official break up le?li yun n joey...we r gone?haha,i think so le ba....has been a fool for so long...so,wat did i get?i get nth..i get coldness from them nia...y i can spend effort to accompany whereas they cant spend with me?y?cox,i m a fool...i now then realize tt,i m a fool in everywhere...not a human..so wat?can accept me?then,juz tell me straight at my face...i dun wanna b a dog wagging my tail for u when u come to me!i can b alone...like i used to...

2007-01-03T08:31:00.000+08:00

yoz..herm,going to sch reopen soon le...now is the yr 2007 le!hope to hav a new start?haha,everybodi all sae like tt de...so,i sae also lor...-_-'' think of the whole yr 2006...wat hav i done?

2006
still working in TKA until 26th of April?(if i m not wrong,cox,2nd of May..i sch reopen le...)with a jason at 9th of march....break up with jason at 24th of july...hate every month de 9th?cox,i juz hate it!every bad thing happen on the 9th!therefore,i hate my birthdae too!make great friends with jason,li yun n andy...at the end...everybodi broke up...it hurts me...then,suddenly me n joey close...we break up again...she found new 1....so,i m transparent again...meet lao gong at 15th of aug...haha~ then,meet tomes dear n kenny da long...i luv 3 of them la!wish tt my holidae can b with them...hehe~retake my "o" lvl again?haiz...3rd time le...hope realli can pass ba....my 1st sem de GPA is 3.688!then,no more le?cox,a lot hav been buried inside my dead body le...nth to write le...i m juz a soul?

2007
hope to continue with lao gong the relationship...tomes dear n kenny da long by my side...hehe~ luv them!of cox,my bao ling mummy!luv her too!opps,i m les....=x hope to find wat i hav lost...:'li yun,joey,andy" but,i think...cant le ba?cox,they hav their own guardian angel le la...hope to get my 2nd sem minimum also 3.688!can successfully promote to 2nd yr!

2006-12-26T00:32:00.000+08:00

todae,me n tomes dear chat around 11 hrs lei!omg~n,noe how we end?cox,he no credit le..so,tml continue...-_-'' omg~ *faint*but,he is realli a great friend la..busy working still send me msg like drinking water...luv him la...hehe...

2006-12-25T02:19:00.000+08:00

yoz...so long never update blog le..but,this time hor...juz wanna wish everybodi a happy christmas n...DEAR,HAPPY BELATED 19TH BIRTHDAE!!!*MuAcKz*

2006-12-11T03:40:00.000+08:00

whew...yesterdae got fever...sianz..but,now better la...feeling unwell for 2 weeks...i hav been thinking for the pass few daes...do both of u realli forget me?i hav been thinking...how close we r....at the end,wat do i get at the end?"birthdae present hav to wait..."ya,wait until now?do u realli care for me?do u still remember tt,i m still alive n present?last time,after wake up got msg each other...now?how long didnt we msg each other le?m i realli so not important?"1 week will always go out min 1 time"at the end,how long we never go out le?r u realli so busy tt,u forgotten me?no money,i help u pay....those i can afford de,i give out everything...at the end,wat i get?ya rite,dear & darling....all fake!

give all i can for u...cox,u r younger than me...treat u like my real younger sis...at the end,got bf?u give up on me...no bf le,then come find me?wat m i?a tissue paper?temprorary de?if it is,i realli nth to sae..

conclusion is...can both of u feel wat i m feeling now?b ur guardian angel...n,this is how both of u treat me?if it is,dun get into my world,make me wounds all over..thanz...makes me feel dead 1 more...

2006-12-09T21:26:00.000+08:00

todae wake up at 7 plus...dun noe y...cant sleep...haiz,yesterdae..my tomes dear cry le...so sad...haix,yesterdae accompany him till 2am plus...then,after tt...jiu went to sleep le...todae managed to watch pokemon..hehe,then,my mummy so good...keep hinting me go buffet with her...actually,she wan to xiu wo de mei mao lor...-_-'' as usual...i m in pain...haiz...y woman must b so troublesome de?next time,i dun wan go threading or watsoever lei...then,take a nap...wake up to play my pokemon...hehe...pokemon yellow is now my time...hehe...i now wanna sae is tt,i wanna protect tomes..cox,he is in low tide now...last time...i need to protect 2 other ppl...however,i realised tt,they do not need me...they rather spend their time with others...so,wat for do i stay on to b their guardian angel when they dun wan me?

2006-12-08T15:58:00.000+08:00

back for more entry?todae damn sianz...y?cox,go for sch for 2 hrs nia?then,jiu go home le?todae bring another bag go sch...cox,my bag kanna washed...sianz~but then,i think is time to sae good bye to 2 person la..its time to let go le ba?i feel tt we r drifting away from each other le..n,i think tt,other ppl hav replaced me le ba...so,no matter how pain i m..i will let go le ba...** *** & ****,bye bye....thanz for bringing me so much happiness...but,i think tt,it is the time for me to realize tt,both of u..dun need me le...

n hor,this blog is nice ba?reddish de...cox,i m wound all over...n i m covered with blood...like this skin a lot...going to use it for 2 months...hehe...

2006-12-07T21:45:00.000+08:00

back for more entry?finally change blogskin le...cox,got ppl complain "bu hao kan" la...then,bo bian lor...i change lor...=x then,todae went to sch as usual lor..but hor,same train with qian ping n geralynn...but,i dun noe lei..hehe...=x todae,lesson so long...but then hor..find out 1 dead cockroach inside my bag!i was like "omg~wtf?how come got this kind of thing inside my bag?"then,todae,adeline never come to sch....so,i veri sianz...then,i sleep at class for mr fucking sim....he chee bye lor...sae i miss 2 thihnking skill lesson...wtf?!i confirm wont show him any respect anymore...todae,PE also funny la...i keep on scratching ppl...haha...
then hor,another thing is tt,i worry abt tomes lor..haiz,at first when hear his ex is back...so happy...at end,haiz...hope tt he can survive this low tide ba...

2006-12-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

whew...back for more entry?5th of dec is so sway!i didnt managed to study for my depreciation CA...tt's is enough...n some1 jump down at yishun MRT!argH~ it delay the time to reach sch...then,at the end,me,qian ping,karen n nurul take cab to sch lor...but we r lucky lei..cox,got 1 cab in front of us...then,it is "on call" de...at the end,the person give wrong addres...therefore,we take the cab lor..but hor,also not easy lor...cox,we walk like siao...far from woodlands lor...sianz..then,reach sch for exam..cox,it kanna postpone to 9.15 instead of 8.15...at the end,teacher delay to 9.30...but,funny lor...when joey reached sch...she like "thank god!u make me reach sch in time!" de reaction la...so,i think got a little bit over react...-_-'' then hor...me sit with chan meng?(i dun noe whether is it like tt spell or not la....)then,2 blur sotong sit together=die together lor...but at the end,hand itcy...go change those correct answer...those not correct de...didnt change...haiz...die le...intermediate accounting fail like siao le lor...then,after tt,fucking mr sim tok cock liaoz...then jiu go home liaoz...-_-''

then,after tt...went to meet my mummy...hehe,long time never go out with her le...we went to orchard...then,tok a lot lor..but hor,when i went to PS...i found tt my house of dead 3 is missing le!!!haiz...i miss it la...sad...

2006-12-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

haiz...i thought this blog would b nice..at the end,not nice de...sianz...btw,mr sim sux..i hate him to the maiximum!herm,i dun wish to spread my wings over u le...cox,i noe tt,u wont care for me de...so,i rather forget abt it...

2006-11-30T21:40:00.001+08:00

herm...dun noe y...i suddenly feel sad...toking with mao mao in msn regarding love?haha,i open my wound once more...i tell tomesss not to open his wound anymore...n yet,i open mine...hahaha....ya,tears started to drop down as usual...i still cant let go...9 yrs has pass...i m still so stubborn as usual...i dun noe y...i noe i m hurting myself..but,i dun care....hu is there to care for me?hu is realli willing to b my guardian angel?i dun think so ba...a devil doesnt deserve to get a guardian angel...n yet,a foolish thought came up...i open my wings to protect those ppl hu i wanna protect...but,hu realli cares for it?i dun think so ba...

2006-11-27T09:25:00.000+08:00

whew...back for more entry?haiz...found out tt my typing has slowed down...juz few daes never touch com nia...become like tt le...haiz...juz reach home not long ago...but,dun intend to go to sch...cox,too tired le..now,my eyes going to close soon...haiz..n hor,todae a taxi driver damn wat de...his attitude...still wan tips...i give u stones ar..fucker...

on 23rd nov 2003
i reach my si jiu area around 6 plus in the morning?then,wait for si jiu to come n pick us up...as usual...they tok n tok n tok...i use my mp3..=x then,my si jiu lend my father a car..so,we go n K.O all the 13 banks..some of the banks has been terminate by my mother...cox,after tt mr sim fucking incident...my mother wanna cut down bank lor...so,still got 13 ba?i dun noe la...then after tt,go c other relative liaoz...

on 24th nov 2003
wake up around 7 plus?cox,kanna wake up by mother de...cox,ah ma is with us ma...at the guess house...btw,forget to mention lei...my cousin's son is so small...like me...hehe...cox,i onli 7 month jiu born liaoz...he also...but,he lighter than me...i tt time 2kg..he onli 1.5 kg...now,he is 2.1kg...his leg onli = to my thumb..-_-'' the elder brother han han...is naughty n clever la...i kanna wake him up by a veri special way...i almost going to K.O him lor...cox,u noe wat?he beat my breast?!wtf~ haiz...too bad la..he young..wat can i do?then,i c my si yi with his son also..in the beginning..his son veri dao de...luckily at the end,got tok la...hehe...

on 25th nov 2003
wedding dinner tonite...wear skirt...haiz...feel like killing myself..but,bo bian...cox,is like tt de...then,all the singers damn lousy...some guests still continue to sing even though their singing is lousy...so,i turn on my mp3 to the maximum....i enjoy my music...my mother juz find me veri werid...y i keep on shaking...cox,i m concentrating on my music instead of the sha ji voice...wen chong biao ge also agree ma...=x n,i c him again...but,i pretend not to c him...i dun noe y...he also ma...he pretend never c me...

on 26th nov 2003
fetching of bride...wen chong biao ge has gone to c his dad....so,he is not attending...but,his mother is attending...-_-'' but hor...after tt,she is chionging to go after him...-_-'' take camera n take pic of my relatives..some of the pics hor..i feel like killing those ppl hu eat glasses to grow up de lor...stand in front like they wanna c onli...make other ppl cannot take pic...feel like slaughter them...then,after tt...go to grandma house...cox,send her back ma..she has been spending few daes with us...then,i take few ringtones from my biao jie...finally,he is back from work..i c him...he c me..but,as usual...i pretend not to c him...when we r going back...i juz mention tt "next time,i wan c ur gal gal..ur boy boy hor..." he was shocked...then,we r on our way back liaoz...

2006-11-21T14:02:00.000+08:00

pissed off can?! wah liaoz...todae morning tell my mother abt my teacher fuck up attitude...then,todae after sch...i go ask him lor...then,after saeing so much things...juz wan a 3 daes leave...n u noe wat tt fucking teacher sae?" its ur mother business..not ur business...by rite,i shouldnt give u leave de...but then,i can onli give u 1 dae lor..." chee bye sia~ pissed off!i wont show u respect de...

2006-11-13T10:50:00.000+08:00

on saturdae,as usual...i go out with my mei..we go vivo city...aiyo,its like a big area..but with normal shop la....then,i c a set of bangle...which i like...at the end,didnt buy...Y?i also dun noe y...then,we go arcade..cox,my mei spotted de..so,we go lor..at the end,it is set up by "e-zone"...i was -_-'' cox,e-zone de machine all old old de...sianz...i cant even find the game which i wan...actually we wanna go n look at the scenery de...cox,my mei de friend sae scenery veri nice...at the end,due to rain...we didnt go out lor...after tt,she accompany me go ps n play "house of dead 3",,,i change $10 n play..i m quite disappointed with my performance tt dae de...cox,seems to lousy...then,got 1 xiao didi...veri the fuck up..i inserted extra credit juz not to let ppl play ma..he still put a coin in it..at the end,make me kanna hit...luckily i do not noe him..or else,i will chop off his head n let me sit...

2006-11-11T01:22:00.000+08:00

back for more entry?there r few ppl i wanna thanz for my birthae...tt is "bao ling mummy", "jeremy dear", "joey meix", "li yun","hui xian","adeline","amutha",ganga","nurul","kavitha",qian ping","karen","ah bee","tomesss dear","silvia"..the rest,i forget le...pai seh...then,the other ppl i wanna thanz..i already write liaoz wor?so,dun expect me to write in here la...=x spend my memorable dae with my mummy..hehe...

yesterdae,i read her post,found out tt her english...make a major mistake...i m shock n angry...y didnt she tell me abt it?i m worried abt her...actually,on my birthdae..telling her to meet me go collect article de...at the end,she slept...while i wait for her...todae,i call her n shout at her...i noe i make her sad...this is wat her blog saes "Jie, Im sorry that I made u very angry n somemore is on ur birthday... Today jus b4 I wanna go sch, I got a call from her... She said some things that made me wakie up... Although its harsh, but its the truth... I have to face it... I know u dun wanna me to follow in ur steps n I also know that u r worried for me too... I have been thinking through it when I was doing my exam jus now... Im really sorry... Besides saying sorry, I dunno wadz to say le... I jus know that u so dote on me n yet I made u angry n disappointed... Without u by my side constantly say me, I also wun know that Im so bu guai n somemore Im the mei that u dote on me the most... Im sorry... Hope u can forgive me... Haiis... "after reading the post...i cry...my heart ache...i didnt sae u bu guai...if i hurt u so badly..i m sorri...realli sorri...mayb,i realli pressurized u too much le ba...

2006-11-08T23:55:00.000+08:00

back for more entrY?todae late for exam...luckily still can go in..then,my report wrong format!haiz...hope tt,wont get deduct too much marks...then,reach home around 12 plus...then,slack until now...haven study yet...-_-'' die le...then,when my sis reach home,she found a notice letter outside...then,its mine..saeing tt the person was unable to deliver the parcel to me..tt y ,i hav to go down personally to collect it...at the end,i now noe hu le...hehe,i luv u!tomesss dear also good la...wish me happy birthdae juz now...(so earli)but,he is not the first 1...k la...must jia you for my geography...but then,tml meet my mummy for dinner...long time no gather with her le...

2006-11-07T14:37:00.000+08:00

back for yesterdae entry...haiz,3rd time le...my sch predict wrong chapter..my sch damn lousy la...haiz...my meix tell me tt their maths is so difficult..at the end,my friend tell me...veri easy..haiz...then,now i still dun noe wat chapter to study..sianz..i still asking my meix..then,my meix until now haven tell me lor...sian....birthdae coming le...sianz...

2006-11-05T15:52:00.000+08:00

back for more entry?yesterdae went out with my mei to study ss n maths...as usual la...i teach her again..i onli study little bit nia...hehe,then,we go play arcade again..but,dun noe y we play hor..so weird de lei...record onli 130+..-_-'' so damn pathetic...then,after tt,we go home le...but on the way home,i veri superb lei..create a phrase is "moontan" (is it like tt spell?)for some ppl onli..haha,i win liaoz...always create weird weird de phrase de...then,chat with jeremy dear n tomesss lao gong till 6am...but,i 6 plus den sleep...1 pm wake up liaoz...haiz,tml got ss "o" lvl...sianz...but,this blogskin nice ma?i juz changed..hehe...cox,i 1 month change 1 time...hehe...

2006-11-02T19:01:00.000+08:00

back for more entry?hehe...todae then noe tt...our group is too large le...cox,we now got 11 ppl ba?me,qian ping,kavitha,amutha,ganga,liyana,adeline,geralynn,lina,nurul n karen...haha,hav to split le...btw,here to announce tt,i got lao gong le..hahaha,tt is tomesss!

2006-10-30T11:24:00.000+08:00

back for more entry?haha,now at sch la..but,this time without jeremy dear de accompany le..cox,he has to attend sch...can sae tt todae come to sch for nth lor...cox,during intermediate accounting lesson..after doing 3 questions...we hav free period le...as usual,mrs yu,qian ping n geralynn is crazy over some stuff la...sianz~ then,my leg is being cut again!haiz,kanna bite again...damn pain..but,this time..i turn clever le...i bring slippers liaoz..not like last time...bare footed walk home...tt y...after the first period which is intermediate accounting...i change to suppliers without having a pass...=x hehe...then now is actually having the lesson of business communication...at the end,teacher never come...so,another teacher come in lor...after doing 2 questions...free period again...so,now playing lemonade typhoon n netropolis lor..or else,i will rot la...=x todae,never sleep jiu come to sch le..cox,tok to them until 4 plus...then,cant sleep...dun sae le...sundae,i 8am plus den sleep...cox,tok to tomesss until 6am..then,he go to sleep le...left me do my stuff until 8 plus..then go to sleep...at the end,he wake up at 12 plus..whereas i wake up at 6?haha,miss my breakfast n lunch...at the end,eat 2 times de dinner...=x

2006-10-30T11:23:00.000+08:00

actually this entry has been posted on saturdae...due to some error...i retry again...here it goes!->pissed off la!!!write finish 1 time le...at the end,update got error!!!argh~ still have to rewrite again...the worst thing is...i forget wat i type le... as usual...todae,went out with my meix...we go imm de ljs to study...she study maths..i study ss de..at the end,i busy teaching her maths...then still got 1 funny thing...i still call my brother for help...cox,my maths still not tt expert ma..at the end,still managed to solve it with my brother help...we go order combo 1...but,i upsize my coke to large...then,my meix...as usual..regular...at the end,i waste my large coke...cox,even half also not drink finish...as promised...i bring her go arcade n play basketball if her performance is good la...then,she realli good...so,bring her go lor...but hor,on our way to imm...unknown no call me...it is david...david got my no through jason...n,david got my no through jason...conclusion is:jason still remember my no...haiz...he got new hp le...but,do u think i care?i dun give a damn le..but funnniest thing is...he sae he wanna jio me...i was like -_-'' b4 going out with my meix...i quarrel with jeremy dear n qq...haiz...mayb i treat game too serious le...sorri,real sorri...i think i hav hurt them again...after quarrel with jeremy dear...i m so angry until i force break my fingernail...after tt,i regret le...haiz...

2006-10-28T04:35:00.000+08:00

back for more entry...yesterdae..i go out with my mei..then,my god sis tell me something...jason add her in friendster...she ask me..got a shock ma...actually,i m not shock at all...cox,i c jason online liaoz ma...but,we didnt tok...i juz treat him as he didnt online...cox,i m worri abt tomesss...haiz..he hor..dun noe wat to sae...but,hope he is alrite lor...but then,we hav fun todae wor..hehe...tml,we going to study liaoz..haiz...retake o lvl again...sianz..somemore,got 1 paper on my dae...hope tt,nth would happen on tt dae...but,thanz for the gifts..although i give it to kenneth..opps...=x

SoRrI....

2006-10-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

from here,i hav to sae sorri to tomes,QQ,kenny,jeremy dear..thursdae morning..i cry...it is bcox,i c something which make me feel touched...haiz~here it goes!(on my own typing la...cox,if i copy n paste everything..veri untidy..so,i rephrase)

j-jasmine,k-kenneth
k-wat happen to her recently?
j-hu u refering to?
k-her la...
j-o...aiya,u should noe tt la...y still ask if u noe wat she is going through?
k-i cant stand her joining karen's group
j-if she likes it,let her b...
k-u should noe tt their group is famous in wat lor...ruthless lei..she join..she will onli hurt herself more!
j-so wat?she wanna turn devil...wat for u wanna stop her?
k-i rather sacrifice myself to stop her...i dun believe tt she willing to turn into devil...
j-how r u going to sacrifice?by joining karen's group too?
k-ya...i will do anything tt can protect her...
j-mr,get this clear!hu r u to sacrifice for her?she got bf le lor...
k-u should noe it...
j-so wat if i noe it?u n her r finish for now...
k-i dun mind..i juz wan her to b happy...cox,i luv her
j-haiz...stop it la...dun do tt le la..she will feel guilty towards u de..then,u r onli creating problems between her n her bf now...
k-i will..she will noe i will...
j-juz stop it will ya?she dun like the way u r sacrificing!u r hurting her!
k-i hav been waiting since march..i will continue to wait de...she noes tt..
j-up to u...btw,dun tell me...u wanna snatch with him?
k-i wont...cox,i noe tt she will b back by my side 1 dae...i dun believe he is a treat to me...

after reading this conversation,i started to think..ya,kenneth has been sacrifice a lot for me...since i noe him,he has been my guardian angel...n yet,i got another bf..i even decided to turn myself into devil...at the end,he try all means to stop it...y dun u juz let me go?let me become a devil which everybodi hates...y still wanna protect me no matter wat?i onli feel guilty...sorri...think n think..i cry when playing with them...they thought tt i m angry with them...i m not..i m juz..crying..crying of y there r ppl so stupid to become guardian angel of a devil...

2006-10-22T16:28:00.000+08:00

todae...i m odd...i lost my temper again...dun noe when..i hav sold my soul to the darkness...angel is dead...left devil inside me...

2006-10-21T21:48:00.000+08:00

back to update for yesterdae de entry...hehe,yesterdae meet my meix instead of some1...opps...=x we go JE lor...as usual...eat our LJS as usual...=x then,we go to arcade wor...all is i sponsor de la...got..she sponsor a little...at the end,she sponsor me 1 ice-cream...hehe...then,we play around $20 plus?n,we buy a couple pouch...-_-'' i buy blue..she buy black..somore,got a dog on it..hehe,cute...then,i realise something..her purse is white...hp pouch is black..whereas mine is wallet is green...hp pouch is blue...cox,all my favourite colours!hehe...then,we went home around 9.30pm?but hor,we found out tt "beatmania" also good to play..its like abt a DJ game la..got disc to turn de..so,she help me to turn...then,i press the rest of the 5 keys..hehe...tt is fun..but,the main reason of going to the arcade is no longer para para...is basketball..haha...forget to mention...yesterdae i attend ngee ann poly de tok ma..cox,gpa quite good..so,my class around 11 person go attend?somemore,my group de ppl is 7 r going..haha,close fight sia...

but,recently dun noe y..i keep losing my temper to jeremy dear..haix,i find tt,i m torturing n hurting him...devil doesnt need angel..cox,devil will hurt angel...i m devil..so,dun b angel...dun b an angel to protect me...*crying a lot nowadays*

PS:meix,jia you wor..ur "o" lvl is coming le...try ur best to go to poly...dun like me...ok?

2006-10-17T22:05:00.000+08:00

turning to cold stage..haha,its normal de ba?nth to sae..nth to think...juz dun wanna care....juz tt,i never ever think tt,it will b so fast...

2006-10-17T18:26:00.000+08:00

todae...i found out something...i m not going tok to u...since u dislike me...n,still act as if u r so close to me...u noe wat?u sux?! lets carry on acting ba...todae go with qian ping to kbox at cck to c her handsome guy lor...-_-'' then,went to mac to do hw..then,jiu go home liaoz...then,come back accompany jeremy dear chat a while...then,he go to work liaoz....dun noe y la....recently so tired...somemore tml juz because of the accounting lesson...2 hrs man...travel to n fro need 3 hrs plus lei...sianz...

DiDnT sLeEp...

2006-10-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

hehe...todae went back to sch le...but hor,got 1 weird thing happen la...tt is..i didnt sleep throughout the night...-_-'' at first,i thought 2am plus can sleep le...so,i go n sleep...at the end,i wake up at 3am plus...walk to living room n take my mp3...go to bed again...surprisingly,i still cant sleep..-_-'' so,wake up again.,,go out n surprise them at internet..haha...at the end,around 4am..i thought i can go back n sleep le..at the end,still cant sleep...-_-'' so,go to sch like tt lor...sianz...then somemore,stand all the way to sch...sianz...but,todae lesson quite fun de la...

2006-10-16T02:14:00.000+08:00

yeah!our 2nd month anniversary is up le...hehe..ya,we spend 3.19am together in sdo..haha...then,jeremy dear surprise me in sdo..buy love letter n use it in sdo...i saw it..although it is veri simple...but,it means a lot...so,i m ok with it...birthdae coming..n yet,i still cant solve the problem with jason...haix,.i dun noe wat to do le...haix,later sch reopen le...now still at here...sianz...btw hor..at first i m waiting for the sdo competition which is at 2am with jeremy dear de..at the end,it server down at the last minute..i was like...pissed off?

2006-10-13T03:25:00.000+08:00

i m back...sianz...i m hurt...i hate li yun n the rest...i m tired..friends sux...hu can i trust?

2006-10-10T22:16:00.000+08:00

bad feeling...y?i guess...todae he also wont call li yun ba...haix,i juz hate myself...till the top!!!y?y do i noe this guy?argh...juz kill me...how i wish some1 can kill me now...

2006-10-10T14:38:00.000+08:00

shit!wtf!yesterdae we go west mall wait for tt idiot...at the end,we wait for 1 hr plus...then,we go to his house around 8pm...but,we agree to meet at 7pm la...idiot..then,he keep on dragging...sianz~ then,finally he come out...saeing "wo mei you qian" argh~ then i pissed off juz scold him..his father heard it...his father come out n ask wat happen...then,i juz too angry le..shout at his dad "wen ni de bao bei er zi la...wo men zai zhe li deng ta yi ge xiao shi duo le" his father seems to b angry..then,walk back into his house...opps...haix,i realli wanna sae sorri to his dad for shouting at him la...cox,he is adult lei..sianz...then,we go down his void deck n settle...at the end,he sae he owe loanshark...but i noe is fake de la...cox,he sae deposit it into loanshark bank account?hu would b so stupid?loanshark if give bank account..not scare u go report n hav him arrested mei?-_-'' but,i think..he is saving for his phone money...haix,y do i like this guy b4?i realise tt i hate myself...when i think tt i m with him b4...

MaO dUn...

2006-10-09T04:20:00.000+08:00

i m back at this time?weirdo...actually 2am plus should hav sleep le...but,i suddenly think of jason...i was happy tt he didnt contact me..haha,i m glad...but,i some sort of cant get used to it...?_? therefore,until now..haven sleep...think of the past..but,lack of feelings..therefore,cant cry..haix....i m torturing myself...should hav been dead..therefore,nth to think....

MeNtaLlY tOrTuReD...

2006-10-07T21:34:00.000+08:00

mentally tortured!!!help!!!i m getting more stressed n stressed up!!!its not bcox of my hw...its bcox of jason!y?y m i so stressed pu for the following mondaE?y?argh!!~~ todae sleep around 8am plus..then,wake up around..2 or 3pm?haix...headache until now...sianz...todae no feel of going out..i wonder y...sianz..sianz..sianz...feeling so down..hu r there for me?

SiCk....

2006-10-07T01:06:00.000+08:00

todae sick sia..sianz...but,luckily get better at nite...cox,earlier in the morning...i got fever..then,now fever drop le...hehe,then accompany my mei go eat dinner...then,we go play basketball machine...now,i dun like to play para para le...opps...haha,my meix treat me eat ice-cream...haha,i got cough lei...but,still eat...then,we go home lor..haix,i got a bad feeling abt mondae..i dun noe y...haix,i realli hope tt...tt dae realli nth happen...

SoMeThInG iS bOtHeRiNg Me...

2006-10-06T00:07:00.000+08:00

i m back again...something is bothering me...haix,todae,earli in the morning...8am wake up le...sianz...then,chat a while with dear...go back to sleep again...then,around 1pm..wake up to call my mother to hao lian to her friend...her friend la..keep shooting my mummy...idiot..sianz..then,todae i noe tt qian ping got all a in her results...her gpa got 4...then,lina got 1 a n 2b..her gpa is 3.313...ok la..at least all of us able to make it..hehe...haix,nowdays veri tired...dun noe y..but,i hope tt realli no tricks from jason...jason hor...realli cant helped la..he hor,got ppl wanna return him hp..then,he dun noe..sianz..somemore,lose his hp..hope he also forget my no le...woohoo...=D n,i hav decided le..mon,i will accompany li yun dear..but,i will not appear...hehe...

So HaPpY!

2006-10-04T17:49:00.000+08:00

got 2 things i can b happy abt...1st of all...is my SDO online friend,buy me a set of avatar as birthdae gift!omg,i m damn touched...she is the first 1 hu buy birthdae gift to me...haix,must hav cost a bomb!2nd is tt,i got back my results le...accounting fundamentals=B,business fundamentals=A,office applications=A!my GPA is 3.688!i noe tt i can still improve...so,must work hard...3rd thing is...jason is going to return me money on next mondae...haix,but..the sadest thing is tt,it happens on the 9th....sianz~

tIrEd...

2006-10-03T15:28:00.000+08:00

yesterdae play SDO until morning..then,received my meix de msg...aiyo,she dun wanna go to sch...cox of her hand lor..then,i go accompany her...opps..=x i bring ppl pontan...then,we go ljs...she sae tt her physics n maths paper veri difficult...when i take a look at it...i was like "omg,like tt,u all o lvl how to pass?" it was damn easy de...except tt,some of my marks will fly away la...hehe...then,after teaching her maths,i bring her go ps play "house of dead 3" haha,it is my dream to finish it..cox,it is veri hard n challenging! i spend $7 le..but,onli until chapter 4..haix...nvm la...jeremy dear n his boss each spend $8 to finish till the last boss..therefore,i still got $9 to surpass them...hehe...then,in order for us to rest...we take all the way back to JE de...i m still tired...cox,1 dae didnt sleep le...as usual...koko flood me again..now,both of them the relationship seems to b not stable...haix..Y COME N BOTHER ME THEN?! yesterdae reach home,damn stressed...jeremy was scared by me....haix...cox,my suddenly change of attitude..li yun dear also kanna scolded by me...i m not so superb...so,dun think tt i can solve all the problems!argh....todae wake up at 2 plus...as usual...still tired...haix...msg still flood by koko...as usual...-_-'' later meet meix to help her wrap present..can i do it?herm,dun think so?aiya,i also dun noe la...onli noe tt i m so tired...haix...mention abt jason...where got ppl got job but dun noe salary de?haix,if u dun wanna let me off,i also wont let u off so easily too...if u dun wanna history repeated tt time...which u were in pathetic state!

HaPpY bIrThDaE!

2006-10-01T15:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAE TO MY MEIX!haha,finally become "sweet seventeen" todae...hehe...but,yesterdae celebrate with her le la...cox,todae she has to celebrate with her classmates ma..so,i dun wanna disturb her...buy her a gift le..but then,she like a unique handphone accessory which is handmade de ma..so,bring her go do lor...she like it can le...yesterdae we laugh like mad woman la...cox,got 1 uncle walk veri funny lor..then,i keep learning tt uncle to walk..make her keep laughing..hehe,then got 1 aunty de actions also veri weird de..so,we keep on laughing...yesterdae also c my favourite aunty siew beng...hehe,love her lots!cox,she dote me a lot de ma...cox,she got buy milo for me...hehe...=D i wanna go for PS often...so,she wouldnt b lonely! haix...hui ting ar...ur bf keep sms me lei..regret giving him my no...haix..

2006-09-30T00:21:00.000+08:00

yoohoo...back for more?herm,i forget wat i did on thursdae liaoz..so,not going to update it la...btw,juz now went out with my joey meix n her friend wen fu...although it is odd no..but,still hav fun la...=D then,we later tok tok lor..n,we r at the ice skating place la..then,c 1 kid veri cute!koko is sick! wah liaoz...ask me practise kissing with him..y hui ting meet de guy...all sick de?haix...now waiting for jeremy dear to online..ya,my bro gone overseas le...i didnt send him off...cox,my fucking father dun allow...sianz...after he is gone...i cried...i juz cant control my feelings..nobodi understand y i will cry over him..but,it is indeed tt i will cry lor..haix...but hor..juz now he call my hp...hehe...so happy!!!

SlEePy...

2006-09-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

yesterdae was quite happy...cox get to noe 6 more friends...although all from malaysia...but,we had a great time together playing SDO!haix...dun noe y i m so tired...but then,forget to mention something bad...my mother juz now sae wanna divorce with my father?i dun noe whether is it true or not...but,1 thing can b confirm is tt...my bro is going overseas on fridae..haix...

SlEePy....

2006-09-26T15:07:00.000+08:00

yesterdae didnt go out...at first got de...at the end,too tired le la...didnt go out...hehe...sleep at around 7 in the morning with jeremy dear...wake up at 1.48...earlier than jeremy dear...=p then,play SDO...its is a nice game wor..hehe...then,at nite,we play again...play until this morning de 6...then,wake up around 2...dun noe y nowdays veri tired...haix...

HaHa...

2006-09-24T01:30:00.000+08:00

back for more?todae went out with my mei...then,when i wanna take lift..i kanna call down to jp de arcade...then,go there chat chat...c regular customers..haha...quite fun todae...although quite tired...

BoMb..

2006-09-23T02:17:00.000+08:00

so late haven sleep?haix...todae so surprising again..y?cox i didnt go out again...1st of all..wanna tell something..tt is...my bill is $139.31!!!i need to pay around $74.05 myself..cox,i need to pay by myself..mayb,the rest still can ask for help?=x todae whole dae watch da chang jin..herm,nice show after all...cox,in the middle of somewhere...me n kor add dialog inside..haha,make it funny...jason contact me again..i ask li yun dear to contact him to tell him tt shi yun is back...tt is the best chance for him...i hope tt he realli cherish this time le..or else,i cant get my ang bao!=x chat with him a while..ask him y didnt go find shi yun?he sae cox he dun noe go where find...-_-'' then i tell him tt since he got go with leon they all..find her is not a problem wat..he sae dun noe la...(haix,as usual...like to avoid my questions)my bro is leaving..the time..is sep 28...5am need to reach airport...as usual..i m going to fetch him...n,will return on oct 18..1am...i also wanna go!even though sch reopens le...i dun care..but,this means 1 thing...i m going to emotional unstable...now,i cant sleep..dun noe y...i noe tt i m worrying abt something..but,dun noe wat thing is tt...haix~

thinking abt wat li yun dear tell me earlier..."ta zhi yao zuo yi ge xiao dong zuo,jiu dui ni de ying xiang hen da hor?"did i?i thought i hav sealed him up le?she tell me to let go...i thought i hav let go le?i where got didnt let go?or,did i realli didnt let go?I DUN NOE!!!I JUZ FEEL LIKE DYING!!

SiAnZ...

2006-09-21T21:28:00.000+08:00

back for more entry?herm...todae wake up around 1?then...prepare the uniform to return to TKA de...cox,keep forgetting la..=x die die...but,then...todae managed to return...cox,hui ting remind me..thanz! but,still cant get back my money lor...=x (money-minded) then,accompany hui ting to her work place which is suntec de star factory n virtualand lor...then,rot n play until around 7..come home liaoz..hehe...now missing dear...so,waiting for him to come home lor...=p

2006-09-21T01:25:00.000+08:00

back for more?todae go out with hui ting...then,we go play para para...yeah! i got SS for 1 of my song..in hard mode!haha,got improved le...so happy!then,we also play DDR la...then,we also play rock fever...but,wanna save money lei...but,still cant..hehe...

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2006-09-19T13:56:00.000+08:00

back for more entry...yesterdae didnt go out...(wah...so surprising) but then,at nite realized 1 thing...jeremy is so small in size!haha...laughing my head off le la..but,he is cute la..=x but,my scar is open...bleeding...wonder did jason managed to find shi yun?

HaIx...

2006-09-18T00:50:00.000+08:00

back for more entry...todae specially went down to support hui ting for her project superstar at toa payoh...but then,she out liaoz...quite a pity lor...hope jason can find shi yun...nowadays realli no mood to tok...

ShOcKeD...

2006-09-17T13:36:00.000+08:00

back for more entry?yesterdae forced li yun to go out with me to suntec to pass hui ting song lyrics for todae de project superstar...hope she can make it ba....good luck! then,yesterdae was shocked to found out tt shi yun is on newspaper!she has 2 months never gone home le...haix...i guess jason should b worried sick ba?n,does she noe tt like tt isnt good?juz vanished from the world?but,its not my problem le...his problem...not going to b my problem anymore...btw,dun noe later going to support her or not...veri sianz...=x

DeCiDeD...

2006-09-16T00:13:00.000+08:00

i m back again?haix...i hav decided to seal up jason in my mind...1 last time...i will b using all my might to think of him...n i m going to forget abt him...

SuDdEnLy...I fEeL hUrTz...

2006-09-15T15:42:00.000+08:00

i suddenly feel hurtz...y?m i stupid to help jason jio back shi yun?even i noe tt,shi yun will hurt him..but,i still push him to her side...i noe,tt jason wanted to b with her...even she 2-timing..he doesnt care...juz now the love letter...is i help him think de...m i correct to do it?i dun noe..i juz feel hurtz...

So SwEeT!

2006-09-15T11:24:00.000+08:00

so sweet!jeremy dear is so sweet!yesterdae sleep throughout...didnt go out...cox,too tired...but,hor...at nite...jeremy celebrate our 1 month anniversary at msn n skype...he is realli damn sweet lor..he remember when i give him my no...which is on 14 of aug...n when i agree to become his gf...tt is...3.19am on 15 of aug!

JuIcY nEwS....

2006-09-14T14:32:00.000+08:00

back for more entry?yesterdae meet up hui ting n jason quite late...i m not alrite...realli not alrite...screw up my accounting exam...listening to "pretty boy" all the way to bugis...then,i m staring at the blank?stare n stare...finalli tears come out...cant control...somemore,going to reach bugis le..-_-'' jason sense something wrong...hui ting bluff him tt my eyes not too well...after playing para para..as we rush down to play...we go home...everybodi take bus 61...after sending hui ting home as west mall...i left alone to chat with jason...we break up...bcox,he sae he realli luv shi yun...but,she like tt treat him...n,he noes tt my heart belongs to some1 else...i admit...chat until 5 plus...he was tired....cox,todae he got interview...

ShOcK...

2006-09-13T10:59:00.000+08:00

back for more entry?yesterdae meet up with jason n li yun...after sending li yun home...spend some time with jason alone..then,we walk back to west mall from top to bottom...while walking,i noe something shocking...b4 tt,we went to arcade n play..then,the para para machine de sensor sort of siao siao..then,jason angry...hit the sensor..kanna scolded..but hor,i thought as a worker inside arcade..u cant scold customers?he sux lor...idiot...then,while we r walking towards the highest storey...i tell jason tt,he can patch up with any1,as long he is happy...then,he sae dun wan...then,i sae tt he still like shi yun ba...he sae,"actually i already take wat i wan liaoz...." its like...i m so shocked of him to sae tt! juz 1 month! then,he sae tt,leon took his shit...its like...i m so disappointed to hear it...haix,2 gals hav been waiting for him...1 is celests ba...1 is hui ting?i dun noe...i juz find tt hui ting like him...mayb,i think wrong ba?i dun noe...n,i hav no more feelings for jeremy...haix...later,mayb hav to train hui ting for singing...n,we r going to jason house..?i m so sianz...y neeed to go?haix...n,ya..yesterdae as usual..send him back till void deck?(kanna weird?send guys home?)

DuN nOe CaN mAkE iT oR nOt...

2006-09-11T12:02:00.000+08:00

back for todae entry...haix,yesterdae got a shock from hui ting...she chat with jason...at the end,jason sae this time he is serious de...haha,i think,should b lies ba?but,she sae she belief...todae,go n take my test...use 1 hr to do finish...minimum 5 marks fly liaoz..cox,forget the answer...=D -_-''

HaIx...

2006-09-10T20:29:00.000+08:00

i m back...yesterdae catch up with jason...at the end,onli listen few boring stories...i dun noe wat to do now..haix...confused,troubled...

BaCk InTo My OwN IcY wOrLd...

2006-09-09T09:15:00.000+08:00

yesterdae was happy tt mr tang sae tt my group project is quite well done...n,kavitha too! *clap* yesterdae is the last dae of sch...n,we r going to hav our major exam next week de mon n wed..then,its our holidae!!!haix,ITE so weird...everytime different from other ppl de...-_-'' but hor,1 thing is...i hav gone back to jason side..but jeremy will still b my bf...cox,i like him..not jason...but,i need to get back the things i needed from jason...i noe tt its my suffering time le...

???

2006-09-06T08:22:00.000+08:00

as usual...todae come to sch lor..but,earli..haha,then,come with amutha...thinking abt wat jeremy dear tell me yesterdae...n,some other things bother me this morning...haix,n ya..we quarrel...n,we stop toking...haha,let natural take course ba..dun wanna force anybodi or anything..but,now...hav to trouble abt my meix birthdae present le..haix...

PiSsEd OfF~

2006-09-04T14:33:00.000+08:00

pissed off by 1 classmate...dun noe which idiot on music so loud tt now teacher in OA de...cannot listen to music liaoz...sianz~ then,jeremy cant online too...make me double sianz... tml is 5th of sep...do u think tt jason will return me money as he promised?or he will MIA?i dun noe...let tml to decide ba...tired...juz tired..juz now BF give two quiz...haha,i didnt study..simply leave blank?haix,nowadays,i go crazy le...

BoIlInG...

2006-09-03T21:23:00.000+08:00

temperature is boiling now!!!guys sux...wah liaoz..com got spyware...everybodi come n find me...sae is my fault...tt time kor sae liaoz..not my fault..still come find me for waT?then hor...fucking father buy DVD disc...pai seh lor..our house onli got VCD player...not DVD lor..then,tell me to play...at the end,i dun noe how come cannot run..sae wat "ru guo bu gan yan,jiu bu yao nong" wah liaoz...as if wat?i wanna help u ar?idiot...

PiSsEd OfF!

2006-09-03T13:50:00.000+08:00

pissed off la!!!my bro now angry over his phone...jason...i hate u...!!!

???

2006-09-01T17:05:00.000+08:00

yoz...back for yesterdae entry...yesterdae went out with huit ting after sch...then,we go play para para at suntec....c thiam sheng...wah,he become more n more handsome wor...=p then,he ask me didnt work la?i sae ya...he sae he wanna help me to go back to arcade n do...but,i was wondering..should i go back?cox,i thought of going to return the uni lor..haix...

SiAnZ~

2006-08-30T15:29:00.000+08:00

todae wake up at 6.24...haix,chiong like mad woman...stand all the way to bishan...sianz~ todae OA cant online...cox,new teacher...then,BF also no teacher...at the end,cancel AC lesson..todae conclusion...is SUPER DUPER SIANZ~

PaI sEi La...

2006-08-29T17:00:00.000+08:00

todae de 2nd post....went to ssch as usual la...now our group,offically hav 8 ppl...almost half of de class le...-_-'' first time go buy present for gals...so ma fan n so pai seh...de person i buy is for "li yun"..so,pls b touched hor...=x wah liaoz...1st time has to go n choose present myself...

OmG~

2006-08-29T16:56:00.000+08:00

back for more?1 month has pass...i thought he has vanished...but,i realised he was back when he uses steven no to call me...i realised tt,andy n li yun dear doesnt wan to forgive him...i was like "should i forgive him?3 of us...2 doesnt wanna forgive..."confused..hu can teach me wat to do?

?

2006-08-27T19:21:00.000+08:00

back for more ba...hehe...yesterdae meet joey meix to eat dinner...again,i go play para para...hehe...n,i was able to play hard le lei..haha...so happy...but,not veri good...then,i c a veri funny thing..."i will v angry is bcox u doesnt wan to stick with me" hahaha!!!funniest joke i ever seen..therefore,i think tt,their anniversary isnt happy ba...but,he choose de...so,wat can i saE?hahahaha...opps..=x (i m so bad)

HaPpY!

2006-08-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

back for more?hehe....yesterdae is jason n shi yun de 1st month anniversary wor...hope both of them hav a happy time together...todae,my bro is back!!Yeah!!! happy sia...although will hav ppl to snatch com liaoz...but,i dun mind...hehe...but,i feel emptiness...y?

StUcK iN bEtWeEn....

2006-08-24T15:09:00.000+08:00

back for more entry...hehe...yesterdae,i make jeremy cry le...i m stuck in between...kenneth n jeremy?can u both...stop treating me so good?i cant breathe...yesterdae,i intend to torture myself...kenneth help me block all of it...its like "y?we no longer together le...stop treating me so good..." kenneth sae "its worth it" my heart feel pain..haix,then,yesterdae i "so call" flare my temper at jeremy...then,jeremy...he rong ren wo de everything...how?i realli dun noe how...i sae i wanna break up..he cant take it...haix...save me...

So SwEeT...

2006-08-23T09:44:00.000+08:00

jeremy so sweet...he te di msg me towake me up to go to sch..but,i wake up slightly la..hehe...then,i find tt he is a sweet n nice guy...but,i scarett i will dui bu qi ta...haix,er qie,ta you te di 8 dian qi lai...pei wo liao tian...zhen de shi,xin ku ta le la...heart pain sia...=x finally rush finish my things le...todae de assignment n yesterdae de assignment..i all do finish le..yeah..can relax liaoz...hehe...

?

2006-08-22T17:11:00.000+08:00

i think i screw my 3rd time...haix...dun noe can make it or not...how???how???sianz...

SpEcIaLly 4 U...

2006-08-21T16:59:00.000+08:00

this entry..is for me li yun dear dear de...juz now at lunch break finish it de....if got typo error,forgive me hor...pai seh...cox,i onli listen nia...these 2 songs de lyrics r for u de...i think,it represent ur thinking n feelings now ba...but hor,i onli take out the important words nia...

"ni hai ai wo ma"
qing bu zi jing xiang qi ni
na xie tian mi de hui yi
ou er bao chi yi dian ju li
hui dao peng you de guan xi
cong ci xiang nian ni,zhi neng fang zai xin li
ni hai ai wo ma
yi zhi hao xiang wen ni zhe ju hua
que you pa,ting dao ni zhen shi de hui da
ni hai ai wo ma
wei he ni zhong shi bu shuo hua
hao xiang zai jian ni, xiang ting ting ni de sheng yin
wo hui xuan ze mian dui tui chu, gei ni shen ai de ni zhu fu
bu guan ni,hui you shen me hui da
wo hui yi zhi deng ni
ni hai ai wo ma
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dao dai
wo shou gou le deng dai
ni suo wei de an pai
shuo de wei lai, duo jiu cai lai
wo xiang yi lai,er ni que dou bu zai
ni gei de quan shi kong bai
wo zai xing fu de men wai, que yi zhi dou jin bu lai
ni lei ji de shang hai, wo shi zhen de hen nan shi huai
zui hou cai ba hua shuo kai
ku zhe qiu wo liu xia lai
bei ni qing shou pao kai tui luo xuan ya
guo qu tian mi zai dao dai
zhi shi gan jue yi jing bu zai

PiSsEd OfF~

2006-08-20T21:33:00.000+08:00

todae..suppose to go out de la..at the end,got last min thing...make me pissed off la...n,ya,she is agree with me,..but,wat can i do?so,todae play jeremy dear intro me the o2jam lor...then,now,i stuck at lvl 8..cox,no song for me to play...-_-'' cox,still dl ma...then,got 1 song...but,veri high la...too difficult to play...n hor,it seems tt i m so outdated...my god sister class r playing o2jam...n yet,i dun noe wat is it until jeremy dear tell me...haix,something is bothering me...but,i dun noe is wat...need a person so badly now...

HaIx...

2006-08-19T22:22:00.000+08:00

back for more update!!!todae go out with dear...go play para para...yeah!i got first..haha,i go break record...but,we meet around 3?we go IMM buy fake nails..then,we go long john silver eat ma..i pay for her...although me no money liaoz..but,still can afford la...cox,she realli no money liaoz...then,we go entertainment play arcade...haha,we c a gal para para...damn funny de lor..cannot play hard..still wan play hard..then,i play ma..i todae total play 3 times...cox,dear let me play ma...hehe..the first 2 times...is 4th n 9th...then,i unhappy...later we go back again...then,i got 1st!hehe..but,still not satisfied...then,we go outside tok tok...but hor,when i help her paste fake nails at ice skating centre...veri funny lor..when we intend to go..it play 5566 de "easy come easy go..." then,when we realli wan to go...it play S.H.E de "bu xaing zhang da"...so,we decided to sit down to listen lor...after listening,we intend to go de...at the end,play 5566 de "shen hua"..then,its like...i sae tt,we no need to go liaoz la...like tt...but at the end,the person play dialect song...so,i veri xian shi de...i sae "we go ba" haha...but,my flesh kanna stick to dear de..quite pain sia,,when i pull out..so,we go home individual lor..